I feel so ashamed ... Ashamed that the only reason i decided to read this book was my housemate asking me to go to the cinema to watch the movie last week. And me being me, aware of the fact, that the movie was base on the novel, i have made the decision to read to book before I see the movie. So I went online on amazon website and downloaded the book to my kindle.... A what a smart act that was! THIS BOOK HAS CHANGED MY LIFE!
I started to read this book last monday. Firstly i was surprised that is written in the forms of letters from Charlie to his "Friend". At the beginning the letter were written in basic english. you could tell that a 15 year old boy is writing these. But slowly the writing got better and better. And the story captivated me. I could not put the book down. I took my kindle everywhere with me and read the story on.
I love the music and book references. I actually love the fact the the author refers to them. Personally, i think it will make the reader to actually read these books. It definitely makes me to read them. I have written them down and will go read them. The music in the book is my kind of music. I love indie music.
The story is so beautiful. I cried all the way through the book. Especially at the end when we found out about the twist. I was so surprised and angry. But the best thing was how the author described our generation, actually every generation. Our feelings, desires, dreams.. what angers us. What makes us happy.
There are two parts which changed my life.
1) When Bill told Charlie one sentence : "We accept the love we think we deserve." This opened my eyes and made me realise that most of my relationships were like that. Even the current one. I go for people who wants me. I settle. But i am scared to look for more. I am scared that if i really go after somebody i want, i get hurt and rejected. But i do not want that anymore. I want something more. Love which fills my body all the way with energy and excitement. I want to feel the butterflies in my belly again. I want to be happy, happy all the way to my core. I wanna wake up in the morning with the thought about the other person. And look really forward to be with that person. I do not want to settle anymore.
2) Sam said this when she was leaving for college and it stuck in my mind and made me realise that i need to start doing this with my life : "So tomorrow, I am leaving. And I'm not going to let that happen again with anyone else. I'm going to do what I want to do. I'm going to be who I really am. And I'm going to figure out what that is...."
I recommend this book. It has really changed my life. And i recommend to see the movie. It made me cry also. This is book i will read again and again. This is actually a book i will buy for my children one day.